We won't fear tomorrow!

Yesterday evening, I successfully registered TOEFL on December this year on net. I was a lucky one, because one hour later there was no seat for anyone to sit.

In fact, there was a conflict between Gary and me at that emergent moment. You know, it was the first time for me to get the TOEFL registration, which was too complicated to handle it effortlessly. During the process of registration, the system asked me to fill four ETS codes of the universities I planned to apply. At the first sight, it confused me a lot because I really didn’t know which university I would choose. I gave him a call and asked for help, because he had once registered this kind of test before. However, twenty minutes passed, and he didn’t come.

It was crucial for me, because it is said that the number of TOEFL test takers rocketed dramatically in the recent years, and the seats for test takers were on an extremely competitive basis and there was no seat in November already, therefore the door for December registration would be shut at any moment. I from time to time made mistakes in filling those blanks at the critical situation. Therefore, I was extremely hurried and angry about his absence. Then I sent him messages to hurry up him, however he replied me that he was still in his dorm because he was playing computer games with his roommate, and he didn’t realize how serious my situation about TOEFL was when he received my call. He then promised that he would come to see me as quickly as he could. I angrily told him that he had better arrive at my room before my registration, otherwise I would be vastly angry by his irresponsible behavior.

I calmed down to read the items on the net which instructed me to correct my filling blanks step by step, and finally, I successfully register TOEFL on December by myself. Then, I recovered from the intense registration, and I thought it was the time for me to work hard for TOEFL, because it cost me 1370 RMB. Expensive!

He came at last, one minute later than my registration. Therefore, I of course have strong reasons to be angry. I thought his behavior that he didn’t come only for his playing sounded absurd, because he should know the importance TOEFL, not only for an examination, but also for our future. I had to prepare for GRE later if I failed to register “December TOEFL”, which would be much more severe for my whole study plan.

We met at 10 o'clock yesterday evening, I directly asked him whether he thought we were the cup of tea for each other, because I suppose that he must feel uncomfortable when I interrupted his playing. Besides, I wouldn’t want to be his burden in the following years, because I knew he would have a brilliant future. However, there was a somewhat long way for me to catch up with him, though he once comforted me that it really didn’t matter about how many TOEFL or GRE scores I could get in the future.

He felt uncomfortable and scared when I said what I mentioned above, and as soon as I noticed that his eyes turned wet and red a little bit, I immediately realized that how foolish I was as I asked those ambiguous questions, and I felt pained indeed when I saw he was hurt by my silly words.

He then told me that he liked me, not superficial or philandering with girls, but liking me sincerely. He asked me whether somebody gave me pressures, because I was taller and older than him and recently a large number of my classmates were wondering and asking why we chose each other. I replied him that I never mind other superficial comments about us, and I wouldn’t choose him at the beginning if I mind people’s curiosities. However, I really cared about him, and I hope he would treat me well. This is vital.

He confessed that it was his fault today, and he didn’t realize my serious situation at that time. In addition, he told me that he had considered a lot of things such as our height, age, and even our future before he began to court me last month. He told me that there must be a large number of obstacles in our future which asked us to confront with in harness. He told me that he felt extremely scared when I asked whether we would be suitable, and he hoped me never say it again and never left him.

We got back our sweet feelings at last. I thought he sometimes was considerate and mature than me in some aspects. I never imagined that he had thought of our future already even before our love, which brought me a lot of confidence to us, because I realized that he was serious to our relationship.

We are aware of our goal, therefore we won`t fear tomorrow, we know where we stand and our destination.

Blessing ourselves……